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Here's the deal

I'm tired of being the wallflower. The pushover. The one who always caves or doesn't speak up bc she doesn't want anyone to be mad at her.

It shouldn't have to be that way. 

I recently lost two friends over some petty bullshit. I repeated something I was told in confidence bc it had a pretty big impact on another friends life. Was the confidence the truth or a lie to make me feel better? Who knows. Am I sorry they got mad at me? Absolutely. Would I do it again? In a New York minute. You know what the kicker is? They told this same person something I said in confidence a few months prior. But here's the difference. I owned what I said and everybody moved on. 

Fast forward to this past weekend and we all ended up at the same dinner. To say it was awkward for me would be an understatement. I ended up seated right next to them and tried to make conversation throughout the night to no avail. They wanted nothing to do with me. And that's fine. But we're here celebrating someone else. Please at least be cordial and acknowledge that I exist.

It shouldn't have to be this way. You should be able to speak your mind without being afraid to lose someone. The truth hurts, but you can learn from it. 


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