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Handling stress

How do you handle stressful situations in your life?

I know I haven't been handling things too well these past few weeks/months. But. But I thought I was doing ok.

However with twins' surgery date approaching, I've realized that I have basically been in complete denial. 

She made her surgical decision a few weeks ago - double mastectomy with reconstruction. Her surgery date is next Wednesay, September 21. Mom and I are gonna fly out next Tuesday to be there. 

I'm ecstatic that I will get to see her, I haven't seen her since her diagnosis. But I wish...that I wasn't going. That I didn't have to go. Or that it was under different/better circumstances. 

I'll see her blog or an Instagram post and it's like I can't breathe. My hands start to tingle and shake. The feeling spreads up my arms and my heart beats so fast I can practically hear it. The room feels like it's closing in on me. Sometimes it only lasts a few minutes, sometimes much longer. 

I find myself making excuses not to go out. I really want to be around people and not be alone but...the effort of human interaction occasionally feels overwhelming. One of the reasons I skipped dinner plans last night bc I just couldn't get off the couch.

So now what? Anybody have any great stress relief tips? I need to not be a basket case in Denver next week.




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